Back-To-Business-Monday

This day has been a real Monday, and it's not over for long. This is the first "real" Monday after the Christmas holidays, and while I've been working, I have somehow chosen to avoid doing any kind of work related to university/my thesis, and also actively avoided bureaucracy of all kinds. So it has do be done now. Oh, joy! And I still have thousands of corrections to do to my thesis. I'm glad at least the presentaion is over and done with. The good news is, lots of new things seem to be showing up on the job front. I guess it's the season for that now. I just found one new job to apply for immediately and one more site where to update my CV. I so hope to find something new! Feeling positive about the jobsearching again!

Work

Today I had my second-to-worst day at work since I started, simply because it was so physically challenging. And I'm not even unfit! The work load is so un-even, and I will never know beforehand what to expect of the day. I hope the weather will be cooler than promised tomorrow, kept getting sweat in my eyes today. *Fingers crossed*

Anyway, tonight I filled in one more of those jobsearch "profiles" that some places have. I need to find a better job! And yes, I know you shouldn't whine about your workplace on the internet, but I hardly believe that anyone from The Unmentioned Company would be reading my blog - and if thay do, so be it.

Hmmm... remembering now that I was supPosed to write about something completely different than this, but I'll simply have to post about that later. Let's just say that some of my bad mood might also be linked to a certain recent visit to my hometown. I always seem to suffer some kind of mental hangover after those.

What I want

Today I've started to fill out a CV on a work recruitation site. I had to pause because it got me so down. Things like wtiting job applications or updating my CV always make me feel hopeless. I suspect it would be easier if I would just figure out what I actually want and then go for that. I know for a fact that I can be very motivated when there is something I really want to have or to do. The problem right now is I just don't - especially jobwise. And even i i look for "simple" jobs I need to make it look like I am motivated and know what I want and what I'm good at. The job I have now if both unmotivating and underpaid, so I really need another one.

So how do you figure out what it is you want? If your brain refuses to tell you?